What is this "motivation" you speak of? Can you eat it? Can you talk to it?

Ugh. Lately, I've forgotten what motivation even means. I don't want to do anything. I want to stay in bed. I want to sit at the school-table and not move. I want to sit and eat breakfast and not get up. I want to laze around on the couch reading. I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to do anything productive, be it cleaning, organizing, exercising whatever. It takes a lot of willpower just to get on the computer. And then even more to get off.

I do get things done, of course. I clean, I cook, I do my schoolwork, I occasionally go for a walk. But it feels like it takes a titanic amount of energy and will to do it. I've never been a meatloaf before, and so I don't know what it feels like to be one, but this is how I imagine a meatloaf would feel like, if it had feelings. Blob-ish. Loaf-y. Like a lump of useless energy taking up valuable space in the universe.

However, I've come to the conclusion that if I'm even a teeny bit more organized, then maybe I'll be a teeny bit more motivated. So I've composed a list of daily...activities. Just basic stuff, it even includes getting dressed and eating, but it's all charted out in an organized manner, along with "un-basic" chores, walks, journaling, things like that.

I've also come up with a sort of plan for one special activity this summer. I'd like for a bunch of the women and girls at my church to all go on sensibility.com and look for a regency pattern they like. (For those like myself who are inexperienced in the realm of sewing, they would hopefully pick an easier one). Then we would get together, maybe once a week or so, and sew together, have tea, and maybe even go to the beach by the lake.

Once the dresses were finished, we'd go out and buy some cheap but fun accessories. Bonnets, lace gloves, big feathers, shawls, bracelets, all that fun stuff. Once these things were acquired, we'd have a tea party! I've been wanting to have a "fancy" tea part for ages, but with no luck. Anyway, for all my near-home friends reading this (even if you don't go to my church), would you be interested?

In case you can't tell, this post was written over a course of a few weeks. And I have become decidedly less "meatloaf-y" already.

Oh, one last thing. I reallyreallyreallyreally want to have a giveaway, hopefully sometime this month. Does anyone know of any good sponsors? I've been trying a few on etsy, but not much luck. :/